All that glitters is not always gold

It never used to matter. The distance, the lack of communication although now it does. It pains me to see that everyone else are in an actual relationship. I'm not trying to say that what I have with my fiance is unreal. The feelings are real, or were real at least. I don't know whether if he's serious in carrying on. The fact is, I don't even care now. At first I thought by caring, we'd actually achieve something. Of course, it took sometime for me to get out of this little ball I'm in. Caring just worsens everything else. For it does not matter how much you care when the other person clearly doesn't feel the same the same way, or at least I think he doesn't, not any more at least. How does someone screw up their life so badly like I did? I can't say that I saw it coming. I knew it was all too good to be true as the old saying goes, "All that glitters is not always gold". I just had to go through the hard way to figure things out.